Births & Deaths & Other Stuff

Birth
In a couple of weeks my best friend is having a baby.
For the many years we have known each other we both agreed that we didn't want kids, she was the sort of person who freaked out when handed a kid/baby to hold, im the opposite, i love that sort of stuff. I've got 14 nephews and nieces (catholic family). I love acting like an idiot with the little ones, making stupid faces, playing kids games and I have the fortunate ability to be able to calm down most babies enough to fall asleep in my arms (most of the time).
Ive learnt more about pregnancy from her than with my many relatives. I even saw it move, which was possibly the weirdest thing ive ever seen in my life.
Its strange, I have lost a fellow non-breeder, but Im also thrilled shes having a baby.

Death
A few month ago my older brother died, it was sudden and unexpected. He died of a heart attack at 49. In a family of 9 kids he was number 3, so i cant imagine the paranoia of the 2 older than him. Any chest pain I get automatically sets me off into heart attack paranoia. He was with the CFA, so he had a guard of honour as the hearse left the church and when it arrived at the cemetary, which was cool. i was a pallbearer, I cried lots. I cried more than when my parents died, I even did the collapse in the shower sobbing thing. It was all very fucked and strange.
A day after the funeral I had the flu, probably caught it at the funeral. I ended up taking a week off work. I couldnt eat more than a mouthful or 2 of food every couple of hours. I wasnt fully okay for around 3 weeks. I call it the month of hell.

Other Stuff
I had another MRI a few months ago, getting the results next week. Itll probably be the same old shit, "we dont know what it is, try this medication" and the medication will fuck me up somehow and ill stop taking it after a couple of weeks, and then 6 months later another MRI and the cycle repeats.....