DePReSSioN

DePReSSioN
i never understood depression, until i was diagnosed with it.
i was on anti-depressants for 2 months, i stopped taking them just over a week ago. I went cold turkey, which you arent supposed to do, but all it seemed to do was make my dreams insane for a few days. which i quite liked.
i also took them because i have a problem with my brain and headaches 24/7 and the doc said it may help speed up my synapses to get them back to normal and lessen my headaches
at first the antidepressants where okay, but gradually i realized that they werent helping, just masking my emotions. i could feel them bubbling underneath trying to surface but couldnt, which annoyed me more than the fucked up emotions i had before taking them. i put on some weight, but that could just be winter, being stuck inside & having a fucked knee that hurts all the time
now im living without them the emotions are coming on strong. its hard to keep them hidden but 12 years of hell at school has taught me how to do that. im seeing a psychologist and dealing with it without the cotton wool brain of anti-depressants.
for some people they work, for me they dont
its going to be a rough ride getting back to some sort of normality but im up for it and fuck anyone who tries to bring me down